Tomorrow Marks the First Month
My self-imposed sabbatical celebrates its first monthsary tomorrow. The first month flew by so fast. When I was working, I usually felt that I am painstakingly pulling at the hands of time for the working day to end. Ang haba-haba ng mga araw, ang ikli-ikli ng mga gabi. Now, I enjoy every single day. I am having a lot of fun that it scares me. Hahaha.
I still don’t know how long I will be in sabbatical. My thoughts are filled with questions and ideas on what I really want to do. However, I am not motivated enough to start with them. I am unfazed by the extent of the work involved or the change that will occur. My concerns lie in the rightness of the decision.
A special someone suggested that I take a break from digging into myself (punctuated by an action similar to a puppy playing with water, read: nagkakawkaw), and stare into its depth instead. Maybe I should do just that. Maybe the calmness would make me realize my purpose. I wish God will just take me by the hand and tell me, in no uncertain terms, that this is where He wants me to be.
