Serendipity

I first learned about quarter life crisis when I was starting on the working-me.  I read about it through an email and instantly felt like I was undergoing the exact thing, then.  I wonder, however, if I can undergo such twice in a decade.  The quarter life span is said to be from early twenties to early thirties.  I guess, I am, indeed, having a quarter life crisis, again.

Since I got back from our KL trip, I have found myself always wondering If I still want to do what I am currently doing for the next three (3) years.  I find myself, as I drive to work, thinking of various scenarios for the future me, seeking what will make me feel…Me.  I guess, leaving a comfort zone made me realize I can leave more such zones.

I remember having a dream about two (2) pillows during those long months when i was deciding if I should leave GSIS or not.  In my dream, I am with a group of people in some sort of a theme park.  I was carrying two (2) white and very soft pillows as I wait my turn to get into this adventure house.  I carried these two (2) soft pillows as I move from one seat to another, awaiting my turn; I carried them until I got in the house, itself.  There was a place in the house where I have to climb a hanging wooden stairs in order to reach the window that will lead me to the sturdy and safe part of the house.  I remember thinking to myself, in my dream, if I can do it.  I remember climbing the stairs, reaching the window, getting into the safe part of the house, without the two (2) pillows….

I thought, then, that my dream was telling me that it is not so bad, so scary to leave my comfort zone.  It was, then, that I seriously considered leaving GSIS.  I wonder now, however, if the two (2) pillows signify two (2) comfort zones — my then current employer and my career. 

I have only thought about this dream again because of what I’ve been thinking these days.  I’ve been having a prevalent feeling of wanting to do something else, of steering my life elsewhere.  I have been trying to recall the many dreams that I had when I was younger, hoping to realize what I really want to do with my life.

Lately, I am able to see myself doing something else and be actually excited about getting and being there.  I wonder if that course of path is really what I want or it is just my thirst for knowledge talking…

I intend to find out very soon, though. Wish me luck!

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